cravings & indulgences

-Ben & Jerry's Strawberry Cheesecake-

it's my soft spot!

it's my favourite, tip top, ranked number 1 ice cream! :)

i'm already so in love with ice cream.

ben & jerry's just made it better!!

strawberry cheesecake really beat cherry garcia & chunky monkey.

after much tasting & comparison.

i strongly agree & believe that ice cream can cure depression.
and make one smile!
i was so depressed tonight.
on a saturday night.
all alone at home.
not gg out at all.
NOT AT ALL.
seems that everyone's busy.
just when i was so free.
everyone's so busy.
i had the urge to go for a drink.
all by myself.
i just miss drinking.
that brought me to missing peixuan.
i'm dying for her to come back.
i really promise!
DROWN IN ALCOHOL!
i'm too deprived.
super lonely~
-SADNESS-

and just when i was so depressed.

strawberry cheesecake made my night :)

just 1 spoonful of it.

makes me feel so loved!

ppl who are always feeling emo shd really get it.

works better than pills and medicine syrups! :p

talking abt getting emo.

i think i rarely get into such fixtures.

sometimes i wonder if i'm normal.

a lot of things just dun matter to me.

or rather..there are many things that a person will tk seriously.

but not in my case.

studies mean nothing to me.

getting good grades was nv in my thoughts at all.

finding a job is just another phase of my life.

i was once very enthu abt job hunting.

but the feeling just fades off suddenly.

perhaps it's coz i'm not attached?

or rather i have nv been attached.

someone once told me.

i shd at least be in a relationship once to experience the happy, angry & sad moments.

and immediately i asked him.

"are you MAD!?!?

Why would a sane person wanna enter a relationship to make himself/herself sad & angry?"

and he just said it's a different issue altogether.

till now, i'm still wondering what's the difference he's talking abt.

to me, i really dun feel the need to get a bf.

or even the urge to be in a relationship.

thought of it before.

but as usual.

for a short moment only.

before i deserted the thought totally.

i'm really weird.

my ambition is to become a housewife.

but i dun wanna get married.

i dun want to have kids.

at times of thoughts..i dun even want a hubby.

then it returns to the initial qn.

why would i aim to be a housewife then?

housewife without a hubby?????

pegs asked me a qn today..

"what kind of guys do you like?"
and i started pondering...
and i replied.."i like guys who are funny but shy. or rather shy but funny"
and we started thinking..
how to be funny yet shy at the same time?!?!?!

i'm a full-time werido.
who procrastinates & holds too little determination?perseverance?

whatever it is..i just thought it was unhealthy.

snapping out of smtg that meant the world to me a few moments ago..my forte!

nobody can beat me to procrastinating.

all my life..i have been into it!

guess it's unriddable for life.

now that i'm embarking onto a new phase in life.

really hope i will become a better me.

recently i got kinda irritated whenever pple ask me abt job hunting.

seems that the whole world is trying to get me stuck on one asap.

i dun like the feeling of being interrogated.

abt finding jobs.

it's sweet to ask once, twice, even thrice.

but it's not nice to keep harping on it.

and reverse psychology comes in here.

the more you talk abt it..the more i feel sick abt it.

makes me feel more reluctant to get a job.

i know it's bad to bum ard.

like leeching off my parents.

but i WILL get a decent job soon!

i just want to get smtg that i will cfm like.

in case i rush into 1 and discover i hate it.

you know..general arts degree really have a lot of prob.

coz they are not restricted.

but not equipped with specialised skills too.

enough said.

HOPES are merely wishes that have a higher percentage of not coming true..
in my case especially!