" i'd rather...."

i've discovered a v.v.v.v.v.v.v.v.v.nice song...it shall be my favourite frm now on..
presenting to everyone.......

"i'd rather" by jasmine trias

I thought sometime alone
was what we really needed
you said this time would hurt more than it helps but I couldn't see that
I thought it was the end of a beautiful story
and so I left the one I loved at home to be alone (alone)


and I tried to find out if this one thing is true
that I'm nothing without you
I know better now and I've had a change of heart
I'd rather have bad times with you, than good times with someone else
I'd rather be beside you in a storm, than safe and warm by myself
I'd rather have hard times together, than to have it easy apart
I'd rather have the one who holds my heart whoo-oo-oo-oo yeah


And then I met someone and thought he could replace you
we got a long just fine we wasted time because he was not you
we had a lot of fun though we knew we were faking
love was not impressed with our connection they were all lies, all lies


so I'm here cause I found this one thing is true
that I'm nothing without you
I know better now
and I've had a change of heart


I'd rather have bad times with you,
than good times with someone else
I'd rather be beside you in a storm, than safe and warm by myself
I'd rather have hard times together, than to have it easy apart
I'd rather have the one who holds my heart who holds my heart


I can't blame you if you turn away from me, like I've done you,
I can only prove the things I say with time, please be mine,


I'd rather have bad times with (please be mine) you, than good times with someone else (I know)
I'd rather be beside you in a storm (anytime), than safe and warm by myself (so sure baby)
I'd rather have hard times together, than to have it easy apart
I'd rather have the one who holds my heart (my heart)
I'd rather have bad times with you (surely), than good times with someone else (surely)
I'd rather be beside you in a storm (oh yeah), than safe and warm by myself (all by myself)
I'd rather have hard times together, than to have it easy apart (you know it)
I'd rather have the one who holds my heart
I'd rather have the one who holds my heart
I'd rather have the one who holds my heart whoooo.....who holds my heart



this song really touched my heart..
the chorus is beautiful..
such a meaningful song!
if i manage to find a bf in the future..
i will force him to sing it to me everyday!! hahha
and if he sings like shit..
i will force him to tk up singing lessons!! =p
actually i came across many sweet songs which are capable to tempt pple into a relationship *cunning* haha
there was this anonymous song..
coz i duno the title so it's anonymous to me..heh
ya..this song..really very addictive too!
i shall go dig out the lyrics..
for now.. "i'd rather" rocks fanny's blog~

bangkok! here i come~

YAY!
my dream trip is not gone afterall!!
FINALLY!! i'm gg bangkok tmr.
hope all is well and fine!
and darling huini..i will bai bai for u! xin xiang shi cheng rite!! :)
so exciting! muz rem to buy lots of presents for my dearies...

muz buy bra for ling!!heee
of coz her birthday pressies...i will nt forget! down there..higher budget more pressies!
and of coz muz buy pressies for my dear frens..
dun worry i wun forget you all!!

pray for me k! i will pray for u all there also..hahaha
okie dokie..mummy asking me to bathe le...
just pray that i will have hell lotsa fun there and get the cheapest bargains and maybe meet a shuai ge and enjoy myself there k!
hahahaha

i love you pple!! muacks~

almost dashed hopes :(

i'm sad!!
my bkk trip is almost broken to bits and pieces and more bits and pieces!
it was all fine and peaceful. boon just came back from bkk last fri!! my trip is just a week after..why cant the stupid military pple seize power aft my trip?!?!?
why muz they lose faith in thaksin?
cant they believe in thaksin for 1 more week?

bt i'm happy! timah is finally online! she finally got her connection!means she can finally read my blog!!i'm more inspired to blog now!!haha

you know..timah..i'm so lazy to blog de..so you cannot waste my efforts!!haha
and i will try and paste nice pics to show you! and i'm fat now..wait till i shou then paste nicer pics k!heee

i hope i can safely and happily visit my bkk=)
sigh...

anyway..saw smtg very interesting when i was reading New Paper today (20sept'o6, page 20)

Definition of a KISS:

it says: depending on your background, you will view the world differently. for example:

1. professor of economics: a kiss is that thing for which the demand is always higher than the supply.
2. professor of accountancy: a kiss is a credit because it is profitable when returned.
3. professor of algebra: a kiss is infinity because it is 2 divided by nothing.
4. professor of geometry: a kiss is the shortest distance between 2 lips.
5. professor of physics: a kiss is the contraction of the mouth due to the expansion of the heart.
6. professor of chemistry: a kiss is the reaction of the interaction between 2 hearts.
7. professor of zoology: a kiss is the interchange of salivary bacteria.
8. professor of physiology: a kiss is the juxtaposition of 2 orbicularis oris muscles in a contracted state.
9. professor of dentistry: a kiss is infectious and antiseptic.

- Spotted by Tay Shi'an

i think..i am a professor of ALL!! ahha coz i agree with everything! so i'm the smartest!hee

i hope this professor of all can finish up her tedious proj by thursday so she can rest a bit on fri..maybe join ling they all for mj?=p

and thanx ar ling! for abandoning me tmr!i was all excited! bt i have more time for proj now..so nt so bad aftall..

ge2206 is v.tough!!=X

no more geo for fanny! :(

back to proj again.............

happy macdonald-ing

today is such a happy day!
i finally met up with shirl, martin, jinrui and jinxian!! too bad elaine couldn't join us:(
really calls for a celebration!

we tried to arrange so many lunch dates!!
bt its either timetable clash or i'm nt in sch..(most of the time i'm nt in sch=p)
lunch was really great today! had great chats and as usual shirl and i like to make fun of jx and jr..occasionally martin will join in..haha we love to sow discord and make the guys "kiss" hee and we are so experienced that we succeed almost everytime! hope to have more lunches like this coming up soon again!yay~


















i really love hanging out with this bunch of pple!


















and i super love gatherings like this!

actually tat asked me for lunch @ sci..bt already meeting shirl they all le..wasted!bt shall lunch with my f2 v.v.soon!!:)

today's lect ended really early too..
i love today's lect! coz it's v.useful for my ge2206 proj =p
my aim is to finish this proj by wed or latest thur!
OK!shall spend tmr, wed and thur to do it!
bt meeting ling on thur.. hmm okok think shd try to finish it by wed! yup:)

aft i finish my indiv proj and a bit of ge1101e proj, i can put everything aside for 4days and enjoy my bkk shopping spree~ so looking forward to it man!

hilarious pictures tickles fanny!!

today while checking my email..i came across this damn funny 1 frm my cuz, lili!
the title was "funny pics". bt i think otherwise.. i thought it shd be "FREAKING hilarious cartoons!" haha
they really amuse me like for the rest of the time after browsing through.
i shall share the laughter...
Oh..my favourite was the "bangkok" 1! i really love bangkok!=) as a matter of fact..i'm going to fly there in a week's time!!yoohoo~


fanny's favourite!!

arent they all ticklish?hehe

i would love to work in an office with the "absolut drink", then i will give 100% @ work!i will not think likewise with the woman who played the deck of cards & definitely, i wouldn't have done "nothing unusual" @ the beach!haha (ugly tan=p) oh ya..i will really appreciate eric's enormous effort!yea~

talking about cousins..i really really love my cousins a lot. Went to visit baby Joie again! on sat..jeremy's suggestion..coz he has not seen her in person before! WHY? coz he's such a lazy fellow!!mum couldn't wake him up that sunday when we agreed to visit her and jan. anyway.. met lili there too and i saw ling aft like a month or more.. really missed her!

actually i suddenly recalled..i met her when i visited joie tt day..ahha anyway..lili and ling wanted to go out..just to walk around to relax and take a breather frm stressful sch work..ling is having her prelims now. ( though it really doesn't seem like it) i hafta keep reminding myself i cannot date her.haha i, being so thick skin die die also wanna squueze in and join them!haha (i'm the 3rd party!) how can i be left out rite!haha i m sure i was the fun factor!=p

anyway..i was so mean..i forced them to go j8..when they wanted to go far east..haha coz i was in KR sleeveless tee and FBT shorts! and slippers.. and i was in specs..no $$ no ezlink card! all i had with me was my phone! being such sweet cousins, they compromised of coz! hee

we walked ard in j8 for a really short while..then lili was hungry so she went to secret recipe to grab a bite! me and ling drank mineral water..i thought secret recipe is nt pro=x they dun serve ice water..and their soba..according to an experienced gourmet, can actually be prepared at home with..no sweat! so..eh..i shall not say anything more!=p

nice sat outing and nice dinner @ thong yi house!too bad ling couldn't join us! anyway mj and kbox-ing on thur yup!!looking forward to it dearie!!yeah~

a date @ cck

i went to kbox at choa chu kang with huini on wednesday!!

we really sang to our hearts' content!!sang till we drop dead...till we were competing who is a greater fan of the singer..i chose "wang jie" and she has no creativity..chose "jeff zhang"

then i realised i really know a lot of wang jie's songs!!haha

and i'm an OLD jukebox..i know all the oldies...huini says i m not her generation de=(

but we really had a great time singing our lungs out!!

and i wanna say a BIG THANKYOU to timah!!coz you sponsored us $25..hee we sang a few of your favourite songs to thank you!muacks

and huini!!send me pics k!!then i can beautify my bloggy~

and i realised my appetite is growing ferociously!! i had A BOX of coco crunch for bfast today! i told myself it's healthy food coz its cereal..to console myself..i really muz stop bingeing..oh no..for the past few weeks..i had been like tt..or issit the past few months..or past few years??i shd have a change in diet..yup!=)

and i'm starting to get worried abt my future..looking at my torn and tattered result slip..future looks bleak..i think....i hafta start making more friends!haha be connected somehow in any way will do..wah..i sound so slack and cunning..haha

anyway..i'm all excited abt entering the social university! start working..a total change in lifestyle..able to spend the $$ i earned..sense of achievement! learning to be real independent on myself! looking forward to it~

jeremy's dead asleep behind me..and i am so influenced by him that i feel so sleepy suddenly too..it's 1240am now..and i gotta wake up at645 tmr!!!my precious sleep!!

thumbs up for all mummys!!

yay!! i went to visit my dearest baby joie again! this time round i got to play with her but i still dun have the courage to carry her. she is so soft and small that i m scared that i will crush her with my clumsy limbs. i was told her forehead is still soft and i can't stroke it coz the shape is not fixed yet and it's quite vulnerable still.

this time round..i captured nicer shots!! and i made a new discovery that baby joie likes to pose! she has so many different poses when she is sleeping. but her favourite pose is the "surrender" pose!!haha so cute~

and she likes to smile in the sleep..but i also witnessed her crying and throwing tantrums moments on sunday. poor her always cry when she was shitting.. and we discovered that it was because she felt so uncomfortable and insecure on the bed when she changes her napkins and diapers.



it's so noisy and joie has to cover her ears to slp in peace..

but the noise level keep going up and she tried to strike different creative poses to distract us

but we didnt fall for it and joie started to feel tired..so she "surrendered" in the end! ahhaa

covering her ears is still the best choice!=p

she loves to be cuddled and feel warm! she is really cute coz she likes to give very blur and innocent looks..heh and she is a kaypo!haha likes to look around and steal glances at pple =)

I think mothers are the bravest and most patient and most tolerating souls in the world! it's really tough to bear a child. I can never relate totally to a mum. Just by witnessing and listening to their experiences through the 9 months and after child birth..I really must SALUTE them!!

I knew child birth was tough..but the aftermath is going to be worse i think.. I interviewed Jan about the whole process and I am really so touched by what she has said.

fanny: "Is it very pain? but since you are on anaesthesia how do you push when told?"

jan: hmm the last hour when i was going to give birth and needed to push the anaesthetic dosage will be cut and you will feel the pain and that is when you push. It's really pain when there is no anaethesia. But when you see your baby born and when the nurse let you carry her, the pain is just gone. I was so tired after that and when the doctor was doing the stitches i didnt even feel it."


Jan is really a great mother! the amt of courage she has is really 100000000000000X mine. She is like so tired everyday now. She has to take care of her baby, wake up in the middle of the night to feed her when she is so weak. Her feet are pain and she cant bathe in water. cant drink plain water. there are so many restrictions.

such a picky person like ME will just whine throughout the confinement month..haha I feel like a timd tortise..haha although you will feel so much joy and happiness the minute your baby is born, but timid me is just too sensitive to pain. the thought of PAIN just kills me.

GOODNESS!! how can any1 not feel pain during stitches..that shows how much a baby mean to a mother. I was trying to imagine myself as a mother..i just can't.

I don't think i have enough courage to be pregnant and go through the 9 months of morning sickness + vomit + leg cramps in the middle of the night + change in appetite + lots of other changes. And after the 9 months endure the pain of childbirth and after the childbirth endure having a bloated stomach filled with air ( when i already has such a big tummy=x), and not being able to bathe for a month.

fanny just need more trainings and need to endure more obstacles and difficulties to grow stronger and tougher! starting with being more disciplined and doing regular readings! so far no dozing off during lectures this sem..so it's a good start! =)

cutie pie baby JOIE TAN

i'm an auntie once again!!yoohoooo~ i'm all excited this time round! my sweetie niece joie tan jia en arrived on sept 5th'06..such a coincidence!it's the same day as her parents' wedding anniversary..yay!the nxt time round they can celebrate everything althogether!

it's really amazing to look at new born babies..especially when she is soo cute! i've always wished that jan's baby is a girl and my wish came true!!she's a pretty cute princess~ really loved lokking at her..even when she's sleeping..she smiles!how sweet..she feels quite mischievous..haha i caught her stealing glances at me and sian when she was supposed to be asleep..and i caught her pretending to be asleep..well..maybe i think too much!haha






<--- joie & her dad, happy family, joie and her mommy, sleeping beauty. (clockwise frm top to bottom)

she fascinated me in all ways..it's really cool to look like so many of your family members..jeremy thought she looked like her grandfather..i thought some angles of her looked like sian..the first time i saw her i thought her "ren zhong" and mouth looked like jan..and eyes like soon meng..but the nxt day when i when to see her again at home..she looked different again..choo yi said when she was just born, she was very fair and has "gua zi lian" and rosy cheeks...looked exactly like jan! sounds cute..hee but she seems to have become tanner.. her skin is soo smooth and flawless..and her hair is soft as the softest cushion!haha how apt a description..

i took a few shots of her..but most of them are her sleeping poses..she loves sleeping..she can even doze off when she was drinking milk..so funny!









baby joie tan jia en~
her daddy's *princess*

time really flies..i can stil rem attending jan and soon meng's wedding a year ago..and now we're celebrating the birth of baby joie! and i being a little nostalgic..digged up some pics frm jan's wedding..heh



































i really love grp shots..especially with cuz!












fanny, rachel, min, ling( clockwise from top to bottom)


and i discovered pple really do change..although i might not be able to spot the difference coz i look at myself almost everyday..but pics dun lie..i think..i have aged...that's 1 advantage of pics!!that's why i like snapping lots of shots..of people!my friends..my family..people i will always meet..acquaintances..classmates whom you might meet a very long time down the road..


what fanny observed frm the pics:
1. fanny has aged!
2. ling has slimmed down so much!! (she'z a hottie babe now)
3. jan looks super gorgeous in her gown. (no wonder pple always say woman looks best on her wedding day)
4. jan, ling, sian, denny and "san yi zhang" really look alike!!=p
5. my face seemed to have grown bigger=(
6. i have put on fats =x
7. i had bushy eye brows..
8. me and cuz look like family! :) (i like!!)
9. fanny had heavy eye bags and dark rings. (heavier eye bags and darker rings now :X)


WAH!! pics can really do wonders! we shd tk more pics
everytime, anytime, whenever, whereever!!

sleepy morning in schoooooool

I'm sleepy...had 8am tutorial today..i wanted to act pro and told daddy that i will go to school myself today..but guess wad..i woke up at 630am when i set my alarm at 530am..how prompt i am uh..and dad just predicted this would happen and woke up early with mum to send me to sch!

daddy rawks~

and tutorial was kinda fun..not as boring and dry coz the tutor is NOT john ang!!yyaaayyy!!! it was this lady from feiyue centre @ yew tee..had a good laugh. we played this auction game whereby every1 started off having $50,000 each (how nice if i really have $50,000=p) and we have this list of things that we can bid for. i m pro! i used $26.5K and bidded to do my parents proud!!and i spent merely $5K to bid to be the richest!!haha and fanny is the only smartie pants who successfully bidded for 2 items on the list..most the rest either got outbidded or showhanded for 1..i was greedy..i wanted to bid for fun-filling moments in life, good health, successful career, marital bliss, take good care of her children and much more!haha the irony is here..since i have already bidded to be the richest..i could jolly well have everything!!heeee


anyway, went for my desired mac bfast with elaine=)

we happily skipped geo lect..i guess its a norm already..haha BUT i being very hardworking now will watch webcast..i will try very very hard to! anyway..had a mini chat at macs and wow..i suddenly feel so old..things have changed...

fanny is now a $$$$$$ minded person!
she wants lots and lots of MONEY
she wants to do her parents proud!
she wants good health
she wants marital bliss (provided she gets her desired)
she wants more and many more fun-filling moments


i guess i'm just starting to embark onto another new phase of life..growing up for me..gotta accept more changes!=)

my amazing entertaining ISS International camp @ pulau ubin!!

ISS International camp rocks! i was still having doubts and a teeny weeny bit of reluctance and fear before going for the camp..(its a pre-camp phobia/syndrome I always get) what can i say...i can only thank god that i went! it was fun fun fun and more fun! entertaining and more entertainment! an eye opener for me..to experience the different nationalities and cultures they present..their different characteristics and lifestyles in a short 3D2N..the best thing is i get to earn $300 for this trip for facilitating..where can you find such a great deal! Well nothing beats having eye candies..whereever you go..whatever you do! at least for fanny neo..this is nothing that she will miss..and here's her ISS camp eye candy no. 1...




M1: SCOTT~

<--- here is scott a little mischievous looking..but as cute and charming nonetheless! he has a nice body to start with..great potential for a 13/14 yr old~=p


and here is suave mr hottie mesmerizing everyone...*drool*













and being such a nice friend..how can i forget abt elaine! in fact i took freaking a lot of shots for her!coz her eye candy is is my grp...

M2: TAKASHI

<--- takashi in his jap pyjamas!

<--- a very candid shot of takashi having fun! LOADS of fun to be exact..

and lastly...a blur look..as always given by ACT CUTE boys..hahaha (elaine's gonna hate me for this=p)

of coz..other than eye candies..we have other forms of entertainment like funny fellows...they may seem wierd..bt they truly have a style of their own! let me introduce a few candidates!!firstly......

W1: anoynomous korean boy!

W2: self proclaimed sexy boy!!

The camp is really very memorable and has many learning points along the way..got to know nice people like nicole and colin..and very knowledgeable persons like uncle daniel (colin's dad).it's so incredible tt dad and son can work together so well..have such a common interest! by the way colin is 42..so we can roughly work out uncle daniel's age...and by another way..hez still into trekking!!!wooowww colin once told me that it's really very intriguing to see all of them grow up..to witness their growth in a short time frame of maybe 6 months..they can grow really fast and turn into another different lookin person totally! i would love to see it with my own eyes..so i would really love to join another of this kinda camp..of coz..with the incentive as well!heh heh heh

missing my dear miss lin

Early this morning I picked myself up and dragged myself to wash up and cannot be late to go to the airport!! timah's leaving for canada today...this morning...huini and i forced her for very long and she finally revealed her departure time!!yyyaayyyy!!!!gotta reach the airport at 9am coz her flight's at 11am.. in the end dad gave me a lift to the yishun busstop and i took a very fast 45 min bus ride to changi airport!due to traffic jam..i reached at 920am instead..BUT huini is more outrageous!! she reached at 950am! initially i thought i was gonna get it frm her..but nvm..it's rare that i get to be first..haha and while waiting for her..i bought tidbits from NTUC @ the airport!!haha

We went to look for peixuan immediately aft huini arrived...met her and talked for a while..then we took a pic and she left...the feeling then..i couldnt describe it..it was like..i had so much to say..bt i duno how to spell it all out..with so little time and so much to say..the words just jammed and everything was swallowed back into me..i guess the time we met and talked and took pic and she left..everything happened so fast there is no time for any reaction or time to tink abt anything..aft she left..i just realised so many things..realised that we only took ONE pic with her..that we didnt tk so many neoprints with her as planned..

huini and i wanted to eat at popeyechicken..bt its opened like only at 11am..in the end..huini compromised and we had BK breakfast! yummy yum yum...bt i really duno why she dun like it..huini's wierd..haha we had a lot to talk on our way back...as usual..abt stupid crap stuffs..bt ironically the stupid crappy things are not totally redundant..they actually mean serious stuffs...well..huini can get quite excited when we touch on "kinky" topics..haha and she couldnt stop laughing..it was quite a hilarious sight!haha a pity i have tut frm 12-2..else i can go shopping with her at bugis..and buy her webcam with her too..

anyway..was so late for tut i took a cab down frm buona vista and spent $4.60!!and i was still late!!fack~ but dad was sweet...he waited for me and fetched me home...i was like hungry hippo and started feasting on tidbits cereals and chestnuts once i reached home..till ard 5 den went to fetch mum and aunt jasmine..had dinner and we went to visit jan and baby joie!!!shez super duper cutie pie...its so amazing..to see the resemblance between her and her parents!she's so adorable!i could feel the joy that she brought along..i'm gonna love this niece to bits and pieces!!muacks~ gonna visit her again when she goes home tmr afternoon!! yiiiiipppeeeeee:)