thumbs up for all mummys!!

yay!! i went to visit my dearest baby joie again! this time round i got to play with her but i still dun have the courage to carry her. she is so soft and small that i m scared that i will crush her with my clumsy limbs. i was told her forehead is still soft and i can't stroke it coz the shape is not fixed yet and it's quite vulnerable still.

this time round..i captured nicer shots!! and i made a new discovery that baby joie likes to pose! she has so many different poses when she is sleeping. but her favourite pose is the "surrender" pose!!haha so cute~

and she likes to smile in the sleep..but i also witnessed her crying and throwing tantrums moments on sunday. poor her always cry when she was shitting.. and we discovered that it was because she felt so uncomfortable and insecure on the bed when she changes her napkins and diapers.



it's so noisy and joie has to cover her ears to slp in peace..

but the noise level keep going up and she tried to strike different creative poses to distract us

but we didnt fall for it and joie started to feel tired..so she "surrendered" in the end! ahhaa

covering her ears is still the best choice!=p

she loves to be cuddled and feel warm! she is really cute coz she likes to give very blur and innocent looks..heh and she is a kaypo!haha likes to look around and steal glances at pple =)

I think mothers are the bravest and most patient and most tolerating souls in the world! it's really tough to bear a child. I can never relate totally to a mum. Just by witnessing and listening to their experiences through the 9 months and after child birth..I really must SALUTE them!!

I knew child birth was tough..but the aftermath is going to be worse i think.. I interviewed Jan about the whole process and I am really so touched by what she has said.

fanny: "Is it very pain? but since you are on anaesthesia how do you push when told?"

jan: hmm the last hour when i was going to give birth and needed to push the anaesthetic dosage will be cut and you will feel the pain and that is when you push. It's really pain when there is no anaethesia. But when you see your baby born and when the nurse let you carry her, the pain is just gone. I was so tired after that and when the doctor was doing the stitches i didnt even feel it."


Jan is really a great mother! the amt of courage she has is really 100000000000000X mine. She is like so tired everyday now. She has to take care of her baby, wake up in the middle of the night to feed her when she is so weak. Her feet are pain and she cant bathe in water. cant drink plain water. there are so many restrictions.

such a picky person like ME will just whine throughout the confinement month..haha I feel like a timd tortise..haha although you will feel so much joy and happiness the minute your baby is born, but timid me is just too sensitive to pain. the thought of PAIN just kills me.

GOODNESS!! how can any1 not feel pain during stitches..that shows how much a baby mean to a mother. I was trying to imagine myself as a mother..i just can't.

I don't think i have enough courage to be pregnant and go through the 9 months of morning sickness + vomit + leg cramps in the middle of the night + change in appetite + lots of other changes. And after the 9 months endure the pain of childbirth and after the childbirth endure having a bloated stomach filled with air ( when i already has such a big tummy=x), and not being able to bathe for a month.

fanny just need more trainings and need to endure more obstacles and difficulties to grow stronger and tougher! starting with being more disciplined and doing regular readings! so far no dozing off during lectures this sem..so it's a good start! =)