i must admit i really cant take changes
or rather i cant handle it well..
recently..there were more to challenge me
dad got a new job.
he's no longer self-employed.
he's no longer flexible in his time.
i see him lesser
we interact lesser
i don't go to school & breakfast with him and mum anymore
he don't fetch me after school anymore
i hafta wake up much earlier to travel more than an hr to school
travelling by train and bus is so much more boring and lonely :(
i guess i'm just too spoilt
i just cant get used to life now.
even after such a long time since jan
first change.
elaine's gone for sep.
i have no choice but to be independent
no choice but to make new friends
have to do some modules alone
have to do projects with strangers
which i don't want to and hate to do so
i have to attend lectures alone
tutorials too
another change.
i gotta prepare myself to enter the workforce
i really don't understand the anxiety.
like what peixuan says.."where's the fire?"
why is everyone so anxious and all charging towards the workforce
into getting a job, right before you even graduate.
i hate comparisons.
not that mum did so.
but some kiasu fellows just can't control themselves every year
BOO~
why can't pple just understand that i am not everyone else
who don't yearn for a job YET
who don't aim for As and president scholarships!
i just aim to graduate with a pass..
as the situation says so.
and to get a job when i feel like it
since my grades are so depressing
why cant i choose to enjoy and study simultaneously?
i hate it when my capabilities are doubted
i can just be branded a spoilt brat if you wish
but i really hate it when i cant get things done my way!
3rd change.
lastly..i think my brother has split personality
well..i think so.
he has been acting weirdly
doing things unknowingly
and putting the blame on others (me)
he has been speaking foreign languages
like suddenly breaking into a canto rave. (?)
he's really question mark!
